D#31: 1st Dec

Wow, officially one month. If this lasts longer than my average relationship, I am amazed. Actually, it is likely to will outlast any relationship I have with people who are not related to me by blood or law.

Thankful
- Not completely losing my cool despite running a one (wo)man show today. In fact, got things (almost) under control.
- Enjoyed the day working solo
- Figuring things out like the fog has lifted (a bit)

Learnt 
Once the seeds of doubt has been sown, they will either blossom or remain there, never to wither. Not with assurance. Most certainly, not with words. Perhaps, with time.

To quote Cobb in Inception:

What is the most resilient parasite? Bacteria? A virus? An intestinal worm? An idea. Resilient... highly contagious.

Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it's almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed - fully understood - that sticks; right in there somewhere.

Or would doubt be the lesser of two evils as what Haruki Murakami preaches in The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle:

Hatred is like a long, dark shadow. Not even the person it falls upon knows where it comes from, in most cases. It is like a two-edged sword.

When you cut the other person, you cut yourself. The more violently you hack at the other person, the more violently you hack at yourself. It can often be fatal.

But it is not easy to dispose of. Please be careful, Mr.Okada. It is very dangerous. Once it has taken root in your heart, hatred is the most difficult think in the world to shake off.